UnHappy to say the least...

03-27-09

This is the fourth day in a row I didn't wake up for class or leave my room til it was dark out...I don't know what it is but I am very unhappy. I don't know if it's the environment, my chronic state of confusion with life, or just me but I don't want to feel this way anymore. Counseling didn't help, confiding in others sure hasn't done squat. At the end of the day I only have myself to talk to or completely trust and that's ass, for a lack of a better word. I remember writing my departure from this earth note a couple months ago and I still believe every word that I said. All I want from people is their honesty and trust. All I want is to feel understood by just one soul. All I want is to not feel like "this"...whatever I'm going to start my day with a fake smile of course.

Later,
~NT